Where did I last leave you off in this awkward “love life” of mine? Gosh, it was super messed up. I realize that I probably sounded desperate and probably extremely stupid in those posts. Wow, it’s been A LONG time since I’ve talked about this subject BUT I do want to tell you
whether you’re interested or not how the situation turned out.
SPOILER: It was a happy ending – or at least this argument turned out well.
Oh and if you don’t know what’s going on, the post is here, here, and here. These are REALLY long posts, so if you don’t want to read them, I basically had a crush on a guy (I will refer to him as “him” for this post) who also had a crush on me. He told everyone he wanted me to be his girlfriend but never asked and eventually I got mad at him (not solely for the previous reason) and we had silent argument and didn’t talk to each other for a long time.
First, it took me 2 months to realize that I was part of the problem. I know how ridiculous that sounds, but at first I didn’t really think about the whole situation… and then I started actually feeling bad about it. I thought it over and decided, “Oh yeah, there are so many things I could have done to solve the problem, but instead I blamed it on him.” I decided I would apologize for a number of reasons:
- Telling all my friends about him without telling him first.
- Blaming him for everything and not trying to fix it myself.
- Ignoring him and taking 2 months to actually think rationally.
Although, there were things he did as well, but I won’t go into that.
I was really scared of talking to him after 2 months because I thought he’d still be mad at me. Good thing is it turned out well and we actually started talking as if nothing happened within a few minutes. I’m really glad I decided to start conversing with him again rather than ignore him my whole life. He’s an awesome person to hang out with,
no wonder I got a crush on him twice.
So we became good friends again (although I don’t think we were “best friends” like we were before). At first I thought he assumed that I had a crush on him again when I apologized, but I dunno. And I think he still likes me but that might also just be part of my imagination. I’ll be honest, I DID NOT get a crush on him for a third time.
This next paragraph might repeat some of the things that happened in my “Tuesday.” post.
While we shared a lunch – not for any relationship reasons, I simply had too much food. (I shared it with more than just him.) We went on the cable cars – two person carts that slowly went across the beach in the sky – and people started making ship names. (He also gave me his jacket because I left mine on a ride – a jacket that I left at the Boardwalk.) This was in no way supposed to be romantic – or at least for me, anyways – but again, I don’t want to be jumping to conclusions… even though I just did. Oh, and people were giving him winks and thumbs up then glanced at me… I don’t know if I was imagining it or not…
LAST THING: He’s having a birthday party this Saturday, and I can’t go! Again, we’re not in a relationship or anything, but I don’t want him to think I’m avoiding him, seeing as it’s the first birthday party he’s inviting all of his friends (not just the boys) to, and I couldn’t go to another party he invited me to. Reason is, my mom is taking me camping AGAIN and she says I’m not allowed to skip out on this one. Sad life. :c
Okay, that’s it. Sorry this was long… and probably boring to most of you. I TRIED to keep it short… although that never seems to work out for me. I’ll possibly be writing about my trip to Universal Studios and Disneyland… even though it’s kinda late for that already. xD