Life truly can be difficult. And this week proves no different.
So, there’s a lot on my mind, and I can’t guarantee this post will be short, nor will it be organized. But let’s start off.
So, again, I apologize for my lack of activity. I still have one more week of school and then a week break. They’re putting a lot of projects on us right now, so I’m trying to be as active as possible, but it’s not much.
Anyways, I won’t torture you with a long post about boy problems, so I’ll keep it to one paragraph… hopefully a short one
which won’t work out.
You all know the guy I’m talking about (I hope) and I don’t really have any feelings for him anymore… I just want to be his friend again, go back to normal, before I started “liking” him. But apparently he overheard me talking to my friends about it at a party… I knew he heard, but I didn’t want to tell him until Monday.
Then on Monday, I tried talking to him (and he knew what was coming) so he kept avoiding me and whenever I tried to talk, he found someone else, a completely random stranger even, and started chatting. Like WTF DO YOU NOT EVEN WANNA BE FRIENDS ANYMORE!! He told his mom (don’t ask how I found out) that he wanted to be friends if I wasn’t interesting in a relationship, so why does he think he can ignore me when I’M TRYING TO TELL HIM SOMETHING. You don’t ignore friends or people you have a crush on like that!
He tells EVERYONE that he wants to talk to me, yet he doesn’t even commit to his words. -.- I decided that if he wanted to talk to me and won’t listen when I speak first, I’ll just wait… and wait… BUT I’M FLIPPING DONE WAITING! He had 2 months to ask me out knowing I could date and I would say yes, but he did NOTHING. He was DESPERATE for me to be his girlfriend so why did he wait? Who cares, he lost his chance.
And now, I’m giving him ONLY tomorrow, otherwise I’m not even willing to be his friend. We’ll start over, and I’ll treat him as if I just met him. No secrets, no alone time, nothing. He’ll just be another person who hangs out with the group I talk to.
I’m done waiting for him. I’m not always gonna be the one to talk first, AND HE’S NOT EVEN SHY! He wanted me to be the first one to walk up and say, “I like you,” he wanted me to be the one to ask him out and request a relationship, he wanted me to be the one to say sorry first (even when it wasn’t my fault) and now he wants me to be the one to talk to him about this whole thing even though I TRIED AND HE DIDN’T LISTEN! (Then he goes around telling people HE was trying to talk and I was the one ignoring him! Wtf is wrong with that picture?)
I can’t believe feelings could change so quickly. I mean, I wanted him to be mine, but it quickly dropped to wanting our best friendship, and now, my tolerance level is so low, I don’t even want anything to do with him!
He’s been ignoring me for the past week, avoiding me, cutting me off. I can’t stand it! I didn’t do anything wrong! (Yeah, maybe he was offended I didn’t tell him that night, but I didn’t want to ruin the whole party, so I thought he’d want the weekend to think about it and wonder how to react. But the fact is, I made an effort to talk, yet he isn’t doing a thing. It’s like he doesn’t even want to be my friend, yet he tells everyone else he wants me to like him again!) This is so frustrating on so many levels.
Hopefully this is the last love rant. -.-
Oh, and I lost my voice. I can’t talk until it comes back (How am I supposed to know when it comes back if I don’t talk?) and I have presentations next week. Hopefully it comes back by then…. I didn’t even do any yelling or anything like that. I was just having some coughs and next morning, I find out I can’t speak louder than a whisper. Apparently whispering puts more strain on your vocal cords than talking, so I won’t be doing that any time soon. ._.
But since most of this post was negative-ish, I’ll tell you I managed to sell Lego Board for… I can’t remember, maybe 120k? Thanks again, Gianna, for giving it to me! And now I have a top seller kiosk! It’s 7E-6 but you don’t have to buy anything…. and if you want something lowered or anything you THINK I have, lol, feel free to ask and we can work something out.
(I like to sell relatively cheaper than average, but since you’re all my friends, I’d be willing to go significantly lower… but don’t get your hopes TOO high.)
Well, I guess that’s all for this post. Like I said, life is hard. I’ll be here when you need me! 🙂